“What a gorgeous book. Hillegonds’s candor and insight are a marvel, his storytelling gripping, harrowing, and beautiful.”—Michele Morano, author of Grammar Lessons: Translating a Life in Spain

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"If more men were capable of this kind of humility and vulnerability, who knows what changes we might see in our definitions of masculinity?" — Ryan Smernoff, Los Angeles Review of Books

"If I could level any criticism against Hillegonds’ tour de force memoir, it is that I wish it had gone on for a few more chapters..." —Gonzalo Baeza, WV Observer

"In his debut memoir. . .Timothy J. Hillegonds captures the terrible and terrifying motion of the life of his younger self: a self trapped in a state of ricocheting between chaos and control." — Penny Guisinger, Brevity

"Hillegonds’s debut announces that he’s a writer to watch." —Hope Edelman

"A bracingly honest account of a boy’s search for manhood through the wilds of addiction, violence, and early fatherhood. This story gutted me. ”—Hope Edelman, author of Motherless Daughters: The Legacy of Loss